A mass shooting happened on aurora Ave near where I live. The shooting went on for several days. I watched a movie to drown out the noise of the shooting, but could still hear the shooting through the movie. So many famous people died. My mother died also. People were calling me about the shooting from other states. I had a gun to protect myself and was afraid of using it so I turned it off and put it under my pillow. The movie kept changing and I kept trying to put it back to Annie. I tried finding the settings to turn the shooting noise off while watching the movie. I was watching the movie to fall asleep, but I couldn't relax. I thought about pointing the gun at the window but thought about the consequences of shooting the wrong thing so I turned it off and put it under my pillow. The next day my sister sent me a message on WhatsApp about our mother getting killed. I wanted to respond but I was driving to therapy. Instead I just hearted her message. I had a pillow and stuffed animal and waited for the elevator to my therapists office. I also couldn't park and backed up a few times. I saw a sign to pay to park, but not sure if I just walked away without paying. Went up to my therapists office crying. Sat in the waiting room while my therapist kept kicking someone out for just walking in and I couldn't hear the conversation. I was worried how I'd stay busy after 50 minutes of therapy. My therapist patted my hand while I was crying in the waiting room. I had my pillow in a clear plastic bag with no pillow case. I dropped the pillow and someone passing by handed it to me. I couldn't stop thinking about what I'd do to stay busy after therapy.
This dream seems to reflect your feelings of fear, anxiety, and loss. The mass shooting near your home represents a sense of danger and vulnerability in your waking life. The fact that the shooting went on for several days and that so many famous people, including your mother, died may suggest feelings of powerlessness and grief.
Watching a movie to drown out the noise of the shooting may symbolize escapism or a desire to distract yourself from the harsh realities around you. However, the persistent sounds of the shooting in the background suggest that you are unable to fully disconnect from the situation.
The gun you had to protect yourself but were afraid to use could represent feelings of wanting to defend yourself but being hesitant or unsure about taking action. Turning it off and putting it under your pillow may indicate a desire to suppress these fears or emotions.
Your difficulty in finding settings to turn off the shooting noise while watching the movie could indicate a sense of helplessness in controlling your environment or circumstances.
The message about your mother's death from your sister further amplifies feelings of loss and grief. The interaction with your sister over WhatsApp and your inability to respond due to driving to therapy might suggest a struggle to process and communicate your emotions effectively.
The therapy session in the dream may signify a need for emotional support and guidance during this challenging period. Crying in the waiting room and feeling worried about how to stay busy after therapy could indicate a fear of confronting your emotions and uncertainties about moving forward.
Overall, this dream may be reflecting your subconscious processing of feeling overwhelmed, anxious, and in need of support during a difficult time in your waking life. It could be beneficial to explore these feelings further in a safe and supportive environment.